Tuesday, December 26, 2006
so sick
i talk to nobody
stfu
so dad u want to rant bout everything
being nonsensical and irritating,
talking bout the facts of knowing my limits
asking why am i doing so much,
staying out so late in the night
for friends, for brother for anyone
ridiculously saying stuffs like,
"no point saying, you go think bout it"
well heres something you should know DAD
having friends and all is a blessing
u asked why i detest staying home
simply cause there is nothing for me to do
facing the laptop the whole day
i can't do it like you
having no life and to chiong game once u are home
i can't do it
i have a life
i play pool, eat good food and go party
can u give it to me all?
i don't blame u, so i seek enjoyment outside.
u asked me if i have limits and know what to do
for friends or for brother.
i can tell you this DAD
i have friends but not brother
NOT LIKE YOU
you have 2 other god brother
but what can they do
im not mean or sarcastic
but who got married with the girl you once love?
and you all are brothers up to date
i don have any brother, but i do have friends
if you have to blame.
I got the genes from you
do i go cause i have no decision? or i like to do those stuff too
think dad think
u asked me if i know my limits,
bout school and stuff
let me tell u.
i have a gpa of 2.6+
not a gpa of 0.7
im not smart, i don live in denial
but what can i do
if you have to blame.
I got the genes from you
sleeping at 4-5am everyday, don't you think i know what to do?
i party until 6am, don't you think i know what to do?
your allowances is so limited, but yet i survived partying and not asking from you money
if i don know my limits, i will be fucking broke
and my account balance won't be increasing
but dad if you have to blame.
I got the genes from you
so dad, u kept saying stuffs like,
"no point saying, you go think bout it"
so whats the point of continuing
i didn't want to quarrel with you
i don wan my mum to be angry again
im guilty
and im sorry mum
i didn't call at 4am cause i wanted u to sleep
i didn't came back cause i wanted to save
i didn't mean it but it all happened
you don understand and you will never do
i love you more then you know
but you never trust
im 19 and 2 days old
i believe i know what to do
i know u meant well
but you assume too much mum
when i heard you fading away,
i panicked
u know how hard i was trying to contact home?
running in the rain, running through my mind was
what am i gonna do without you
im guilty if anything happen
